Now guys, this a little personal post hopefully either helps you or give you something good to read.
Now I'm going to throw something at you that might have thought about before. Our lives are full of stories. We combine each one of our stages of life into one huge chapter. Then at some point a chapter ends, and after a bit of commercial advertisement, a new one begins. We always call it the "Next Chapter" where we start fresh. We are anew again and we erase away a few year of stupidity to make room for some more wisdom.
This, i will not deny, was a hard post to write. I first drafted this up in July O.o. Its hard to make a post like this without finding a source to complain about.
Since I already started college I thought I had to write this post no matter what!
Last June, against all odds and a lot of fighting with the guidance office, I graduated High School. My senior year was a really tough one because my priorities weren't straight. I was working full time to fuel my unpredictable lifestyle, I was skipping classes too often cuz I was too tired to get up at 6:30am to make it to school by 7:15am.
But I did it, even though my previously 3.3 gpa took a nosedive. Honestly I lost all direction. I didn't even finish the application process to my 3 choice schools...
I honestly wasnt driven nor did I know what I wanted to do with my life. I thought if I advanced quickly in my stint at McDonald's, I would make it to a high enough caliber that I would skip starting from the bottom in another industry ( which I was wrong). Then I realized a girl like me, was the only person there who was educated enough to not have to take remedial classes and passed all her regents the first time around, why was i wasting my time at a job when my caliber was way higher?
I quit once I graduated high school, and started at a fashion retail store and an internship, both to show me two different prospects of the path I wanted to go to college for. Retail was really straight forward and was just a combination of skills i already had learned from Marching Band and McDonald's. My internship showed me PR, running fashion shows, model agencies and etc. The dedication to this line of work was cumbersome but satifying.
I had to quit my first retail job to find a higher paying job to pay my debt and education fees. So now I'm working at a fashion giant. The hours are long, the work is hard and tedious, but the pay is great and the experience is even better. However without a doubt I'll be working full time and to top that off I'm spending everyday in school with 14 credits (probably will jump to 20 credits) to earn.
The dream is to do 2 things in my life time career wise.
1. Design and manufacture my own line of ready-wear clothes and open an online and 1 physical store. This is however is the back up, and side job.
2. Become a strong and distinct writer, with magazine features, blogs, and books. This is why my communication degree will be useful. This is the overall dream. Everything else will just fall in place later on.
For dream #2 I started this blog. It's not a niche blog, but I hope to one day develop such a distinct voice in writing I'll be comparable to famous bloggers like Xiaxue. The goal of this blog, is to help others while I try to discover myself as a writer.
To establish these dreams Im going to apply and keep applying to FIT until I get in. I'm going to work hard this semester so that I can afford to dorm or rent appartment, and transfer to another store in the region.
I'm going to have to overcome some serious hurdles. 1 being my lisp tends to limit me as in prospects, 2 my outspoken personality tends to get me in trouble. With this new job, I try to stay as politically correct as possible. As for my lisp, it really makes people think I'm retarded. I, who graduated high school with college credits, have the literary comprehension of grad student, was dropped to level way lower because my th sounds aren't perfect... That's ridiculous. I realized in high school I easily made myself a superior being because I worked harder to proved that I was smart. In employment and college, i have to start over.
Yes I lose out on a ton of college experiences, I will struggle a bit and I will have to make some very hard choices but without struggle where is the accomplishment?
Sometimes things don't go as plan, sometimes dreams aren't more than just that: dreams. People will try to bring me down, people will tell me I will never be able to do it. I don't care for any of that, as long as I try and keep trying until something is achieved.
I want to "Break Through in the Fashion World" or "Break Through in the Social Media World" What's the title of your next chapter?
Tell me you next chapter title in the comments below!!
Thanks for reading!