Thursday, June 12, 2014

The pursuit of Happiness

What makes you happy? How do you pursue this happiness?  

Happiness is a funny thing for me. I honestly don't know what makes me happy or how to achieve it. I just go with the flow and fit into form with where the world leads me. 

The world lead me into retail, the world lead me into fashion, the world lead me to travel, the world lead me into college. 

Now June 2014, my new years resolution half complete, my degree half complete, my life a quarter complete.  Its funny because 5 years ago I did not see my life as being here. Nor did i see it this way when I started the blog. Right now I've been feeling confused and little. But guess what guys Thats okay. Its okay to be confused and misguided when your young. We have all our lives to figure things out! 

There is a school of thought that touches my life a bit called "affirmation". In the simplest explaination that can be thought out: when you think positively and dream big, these dreams will eventually come true. 

I told myself for years and I took french in school because I always believe I would get the chance to travel to France. And i did.

This year I've been telling myself its time to go big.
While I decide to do more and live more. Yet I let time and finances recede because I forgot that my ambition is more important than spending time with friends . If my friends were meant to be in my life, they will always be there. If not, well thats a shame on their behalf.  

What makes me happy is following my dreams. 
Even tho having high expectations for myself is also great but I also got to have a realistic factor as well. Like my body is a virtue. I am open minded when it comes to body art and sex so why is it my body should be faced with media standards? I am beautiful as is. I am not thin, I have curves everywhere and anywhere.  

If I'm happy with my body and my partner is happy with my body, why should I care what you think? 
Its 2014, stop glorifying photoshopped stick figures. 

On a side note lovelies, I will be holding a GIVEAWAY next week. So stay tuned on my blog posts, leave comments. Follow me on twitter, instagram, youtube and tumblr. Its coming guys, it's coming. 

Wednesday, June 4, 2014


 Now I know most of you guys got attracted to this post by me spreading bikini photos everywhere. No, this post will not feature any bikini pictures. This post will all about Sexual Assualt and increasing the awareness for it. 

I think it's common fact that 1 in 5 female college students are sexually assualted each year. Then you might think, well this doesn't apply to me. No this is a frightening number. Whether you are male or female, you have had someone in your life sexually assualted at one point in their life. 

And you know whats scary, guys don't even realize what can be considered as sexual assualt. Even scarier that high school girls don't even realize somethings as sexual assualt until later in life. 

Let me put my experience to let help us really understand. I went to a high school with a very over sexual student body and had a bad rep for teen pregnancies and violence. So condoms in strange places, butt and titty grabs were usual. I as well as ton of the girls saw it as minor harrassment and a part of life. Then during my sophmore homecoming, I remember dancing with a guy that I didn't know. I was wearing a somewhat poofy short dress and many guys had attempted to lift up that dress while dancing. This guy succeeded and literally grabbed be my crouch and forced  me to keep dancing. It took a while for me to get out of that but I shook that off as an "Over the top Dancer". That was what we were taught to think when people did certain inappropiate things. That they were just overdoing things. 

I first came to recognize sexual assualt as an actual thing when I had a drunk friend tackle me to the floor in order to grope my boobs. Even when sober, he thought he did nothing wrong. I remember hysterically crying that night because I thought he was going to rape me. He told me, I was being dramatic. He never realized how 3 years later, that shit still fucks me up late at night. 

It sucks that now that I am a college student, I can't go to parties without guys trying to finger me, fondle me inappropiately, and a bunch of other things that fall into the category of molestation. It sucks that I can't even get too drunk even around my close aguy friends without them taking some type of advantage. It sucks that I can't walk down a street without being stared at or catcalled. It sucks that every night after work, I have to have pepper spray ready and be prepared to run if worst things come to worst. Am I not a woman? Am I not a human being that is due respect? If a ugly bitch grabbed a guy by his balls, he would be mad. Why can't I be mad if an ugly nigga touches me inappropiately. 

But you know what sucks the most? These men think they are self-entitled to pussy. So when they can't get it by conviential means, they think they can just take it anyway. Men will do almost anything for pussy and front on girls that won't give it to them easily. And you know why men think this way? We teach girls to protect themselves yet we don't teach boys not to rape. 

Thats why Sexual Assualt is so normalized. It keeps creeping up, it keeps being headlined in the news. If you are so sexually frustrated and misogynistic feeling you need two things: a therapist and a prostitute.  If you have a son or daughter, please talk to them and let them be aware of whats wrong with fricken society. 

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